Gnosis Notes #128

11/24/2025, 9:49am, Monday, Waxing Crescent, Planetary Hour: Mars.

You are allowed to enjoy, reflect, and celebrate your growth while also knowing that more is coming to you.

Sit in the peace you created. The vibe you created. The glow you conjured. Now your shadows are your superpowers.

Your stubbornness that would push everyone away is now directed at holding healthy boundaries and trusting that the energy will calibrate in all the ways it needs to. There will always be an equilibrium to be maintained. The scales crave balance. The pendulum only swings when force is applied. Otherwise, it remains still and centered.

Every time you choose your peace over everything else, your frequency rises, and your reality adjusts to balance the new data. Lower vibrations fall away and make room for higher ones. This integration feels anxious at first. When you choose your peace in a situation where you’ve previously chosen to “keep the peace” to avoid shame and guilt for choosing yourself, your nervous system has a freak-out.

It’s like when a ship changes directions too quickly for the engines to keep up with. Chaos is triggered in your autonomic nervous system trying to respond to the order, and sometimes you hit an iceberg even after using all your tools to prevent that from happening.

Your nervous system is simultaneously celebrating your growth while also trying to right the ship in this new direction. The check engine light kicked on and tries to flood the brain with all the reasons the choice you made was a bad decision. This can throw you back into the survival mode pool.

The way to quell your nervous system is through swimming lessons. If you’re practicing your methods, you’ll get stronger. You’ll resurface quicker than you did last time. Each time will feel more natural than the last.

Eventually, you’ll be jumping in on purpose—exploring the depths, cleaning the deep end, and pulling up gems. When you have this level of agency over when you choose to enter the pool, you can choose to float. Let your practice support you. You’ll always know how to “just keep swimming” because you’ve done the work to learn how.

You can stop doing laps now. There is no more racing clock. You can finally trust the wind to blow you in the direction of your next chapter, knowing you are fully safe.

You’ve left the chaos of the kiddie pool, and now you’re trying to get comfortable in the lazy river. It doesn’t happen immediately. Surface-level relaxation is the crash. It’s the loud sigh of relief as your energy gets a flash hit of what peace feels like in your body.

After the sigh, your body starts to recalibrate. Conditioning tells you this feeling is anxiety because you made the wrong choice. This is why the cycles repeat until you choose differently. Founded faith reminds you that you are safe and loved. This anxiety is only a temporary state of recalibration.

Rest in your founded faith. The more you can look at your anxiety as a calibration, the more comfortable you can be in the lazy river. The gap between flip-flopped frequencies gets smaller, so the nervous system’s reaction doesn’t feel so intense in your body. It takes time. You might have to make many loops past the same plastic volcano before you can relax and accept that it is not real.

Now you can observe the cyclical eruptions from a different perspective and see the beauty in the fire instead of being scared by it. You won’t get burned anymore. Allow yourself to receive the peace you’ve worked so hard for.

Rest in the safety and love you’ve built around you. You deserve it.

xoxo, Jess